Revisiting a postponed dream

I think sometimes it is hard for other people to understand or appreciate my life path. I don’t have a desire for a lot of material goods (okay, a farm is slightly *material*, but that is out of a sense of wanting to take care of my family and do it responsibly….). My biggest desire is to leave this world a little better than how I entered it. Sometimes that means taking care of my lovely animals. Sometimes it may mean keeping my job as a science teacher. Sometimes it means babysitting at a hospital. I don’t want to be rich, have a super nice car, or be incredibly well dressed. I just want to do some good things. I think to some it may seem like I jump from one obsession to another, and that is partially true. But it is all part of the big picture I have created in my head.

Right now, I have been revisiting my goals of foster parenting and adoption. It did fall to the wayside, as my partner decided she wanted to have a baby before we went through the process. That prospect is still a few years out. However, the image I saw a few months ago of a young girl talking about wanting an adoptive home has been weighing heavily on my mind. I know that I am doing good things in this world, but I really want to be doing more. This is what I feel like *more* would look like. I am not worried that I don’t own my own home, or have it all figured out. I just want to be there for a kid who needs love and attention. I want to have the family that I never really did. It has really been on my heart and on my mind since school started back.

I sometimes wish I could be stagnant. But I can’t. Not in my nature.

Lazy day!

Momma has the week off, and isn’t at the ranch. The fat man is in heaven.

Break!

Fall break started this evening. I am so relieved to get several days all to myself and very little work to think of. I know quite a bit will be sorting out all of the horsey medical issues. The first in my agenda being the ‘prescription’ of daily wormer as a long term plan. I have yet to personally talk to the vet, but there has to be another option. Yes, she was colicky. Yes, she is pot bellied and has some rib showing. However, she sits on a round bale and gets very little exercise. Plus, she has been looking and behaving much better since the adoption. I think the exercise and TLC plan have been working on the weight/lack of muscle problem. I am also willing to put her back on some grain and do a sand treatment. But the constant ingestion of pesticides seems crazy without further investigation.

So, here we go. Welcome to the world of horses and having to sift through everyone else’s opinions to find your own… Fun day ahead tomorrow!

And here we go…

I apparently learned what it was to be a horse owner tonight. After several days of personally being sick, I was called to make the long trek to where my babies are boarded to love on a colicky Sophie. We spent a lot of time walking and doing what I was told to help her work it out. It ended in a trip to the vet to be ‘oiled’ whatever that means… I know that I don’t know anything, but it was a reality check. And I have to do some soul searching about how I deal with these future events. Unfortunately I did not follow her to the vet due to an early job, still being sick, and dogs at home to take care of. I feel guilty, but I also feel like I didn’t have a lot of options. Having a horse boarded 50 mins from your house can be kind of crappy… Luckily the owner was there to make it all work. Some lessons were definitely learned.

Wonderful article from the CNN belief blog

I am a Unitarian Universalist because I could never reconcile what I felt was true in my heart with what I heard from ‘Christians’. Words like these help me open my heart to a religion all too crowded with those full of hate and anger and with a distorted view of the faith they profess. It is a beautiful thing to read.

CNN article link

Passion Horse Open House

Today was open house at Passion Horse Rescue. There were several of us there and lots of stories to share. It ranged from people who had adopted several horses from Passion Horse and those with less experience. My head is now reeling with all the different things I can do with and for my babies. Here are some moments from today:

Argo (left) and Libby (right). Libby is a percheron weanling currently adoptable from Passion Horse.

This is Argo’s half sister, Ava. She is a full belgian and adoptable too!

Daisy is Sophie’s current pasture mate. She is a Clyde/QH cross, that Princess doesn’t hate too much…

Big, beautiful Dakota. She is a Clyde/Percheron cross. She has a video!

Mama Ty – watcher and teacher of the PMU babies

My Sophie girl after her ride around the ranch. Slowly, but surely, she is returning to her former glory. Less pregnant looking, fewer ribs showing, but still pretty sedentary… And she now has decided that the barn and round bale are the ONLY places she wants to be.

Overall, it was a good day. I love my life.

My day: A brief summary

1) Run errands

2) Have a flat tire and call AAA to put on my spare (I GOTTA work on that…)

3) Go to the service center, they decide we are idiot little girls, and tell us that our tire sensor is too sensitive and that changes in weather account for most of the issues. Then they come back, pretend like they never said those things, and tell us how they fixed our tire’s small/slow leak

4) Baby horse has some pretty nasty thrush that just won’t quit, Princess Crazyhorse decided she never wants to trot again, Mom cleans up both horses who then proceed to roll in the dirt…

5) Second flat tire, decide to fire my service station

6) Get groceries

7) Eat many mini-cupcakes in protest of all the things that went wrong.

I think I will go to sleep and try this again tomorrow. We are having an event at the horse rescue. Hopefully there will be lots of festivities and things to photograph and share!